The ghost of jealousy

From the corner of room, those eyes are staring you, staring with the fire in the eyes; you are busy talking and laughing unaware of the fact that you have become a victim. You're now a prey of a thirsty soul. This soul can't bear if you are having a life without any apparent sighs of problems. It just thinks why there isn't any problem. There are people around us who cultivate in them this soul called 'The ghost of jealousy'. It's famous for its cruelty, who give space to this soul should know it is the only soul that destroys life. You never know what the real face of people possessing this soul is. They talk to face how wonderful you are, at heart they feel how awful you are. They praise to the face but feel it shouldn't be there. They say how much they feel your pain, but you know how happy they feel to see you in pain. The ghost of jealousy grows every moment, squeezing your thinking to the point where only negativity seems so right. Not every person is a saint. Some have learned to respect whatever is going on in others' lives but some have make it their personal matter whatever is going on in others' lives. The ghost of jealousy does whatever it takes to satisfy itself. It's selfish, hungry for destruction. The more things it destroys it gets stronger. It grows and takes everything from the purity of soul. It destroys the innocent thinking; it destroys the personality. The selfishness of this ghost of jealousy is such that it just praises itself. It knows every other thing is wrong except for itself. But, this ghost is unaware of its own destruction.

Sleep deprived-(Un)wanted

As the clock struck 9 I felt the urge to go the bed and just sleep. But, this can't happen just that easily! My hungry stomach was asking for food, and the pile of novels were questioning me. With a bad mood, really a bad mood I forced myself to walk to the kitchen, that seemed a great deal of task at that time, I finally end up getting something to eat and the idea of sleeping right after that seems so pleasant. But I still curse myself for time when I decided to switch my machine on just to play 'Spider Solitaire' gosh! Why on earth I did that? Anyway, it's no use crying over that now, because it was not only the game's fault but the music that was playing in background. From that music my mind's attention was completely diverted and I found myself finding and watching videos on youtube related to the music I was listening and on and on and on a kind of chain started, TV, movie, books, albums and it's 2:30 A.M. :s It all seems a dream now, me sleeping at 10 having sweet dreams by this time, but lo I'm again in front of my machine, doing all the things that will help me more in taking me away from my sleep. Oh technology, why did you do this to me?

Mind it: I still love technology, it's just... we sometimes have some ups and downs ;)

Living up my confessions!

Yes! I'm not very late this time at least I've liven up my second confession somehow ;) Anyway, my first confession for the present time has been the center of attention these days for me, and yes the good news for me is I've taken the first step. I'm really excited and a bit nervous as well, and that is obvious; new environment, new expectation and new challenges to face. Let's hope for the good.

Confessions!

I feel so good to be graduated. It's a great achievement. I spent my four years, working day and night for the thirst of knowledge and my love for computer science, and now finally the time has come when I would be applying my knowledge in the practical world. while I kept my interest alive by writing now and then on anything I found, I felt extremely bad at not being able to blog since long time. When today I decided to get back to blogging, I made many confessions. The list of confessions is as important to me as the realization of those confessions. My confessions comprises of what I should be really doing in my life. First, it's a crucial stage of my life, choosing the right job, and then working with my full heart is my real concerned confession. Second, I'll blog :D. Third, do something really valuable for my country and finding the right resources to fulfill my aim. My third confession demands dedication and strength, clear focus, and strong believe. I don't want to waste my life, doing nothing valuable. My life is really worthy and I want the best out of it.